Of course, the last 10 years have shaped who I am today, and...

Of course, the last 10 years have shaped who I am today, and I know that how I react to the last few days will also shape who I will become, but to be perfectly honest I'm not even close to looking on the bright side. I hope I will be able to, sooner than later, but this is the hardest thing I've had to deal with and I don't expect it to pass lightly or easily.