To truly repent of a big thing, you have to go into it with your heart open and force yourself to deal with it at that level and to apologize to God.
Most of us don't think about miracles that we could possibly do. We don't have a vocabulary of how God works with the specific things that He does, and we don't know how to align ourselves with what He is doing so that we can be His vehicle on the earth to deliver a miracle.
People can't do miracles and are not responsible to do miracles, but people can pick up miracles from God and hand it to another person - a miracle happens when that occurs.
When a person partners with God in delivering a miracle to another person, they have done what they were supposed to do; God can then deliver the miracle to the other person.
You do have a Dream. It's part of what it means to be human, created in the image of God.
Not surprisingly, the place we're most likely to experience testing is exactly where we struggle most to trust God.