If you are aware, you speak with awareness. But the awareness comes from the inward being. It flows from the inner being towards others.
Because there is no ego, God can flow through you; great creativity becomes possible.
The beauty of facing life unprepared is tremendous. Then life has a newness, a youth; then life has a flow and freshness. Then life has so many surprises. And when life has so many surprises, boredom never settles in you.
As you are now you are just a liquid phenomenon, changing every moment, nothing stable. Really you cannot claim any "I" -- you don't have one. You are many "I"s just in a flow, a riverlike flow. You are a crowd, not an individual yet. But meditation can make you an individual.
Misery is nothing but the shadow of attachment. And hence all stagnancy. The attached person becomes a stagnant pool - sooner or later he will stink. He flows no more.
The ego is exploitation; love is service. And the service that flows from love, freely and spontaneously, is non-violence.